why i make this blog?

yes...he's still in my mind...bcoz i will not delete my good memories....i wrote about this because i only want to keep all these memories here...not in my mind anymore...i hope so

the rainbow rose and lantana camara

Rainbow Rose

                         & Lantana Camara

It is started when I got a chance to continue my study in ARAM. Excited?? Yes I am. I bet my father will proud of me.

Horrible Orientation Day

I met my cube mate. Her name is Eimim. Beautiful . Yeah, she is. At first, I thought she must be an ignorance girl. But, she wasn’t. Kind + helpful + intelligent = a very nice person! That’s her.

Then, my homeroom teacher and ‘siblings’. Mama Masuke. That’s my homeroom teacher’s name. She’s also nice.

I think I keep seeing a nice person….until I met Madam Hamihar! What a disaster good day! She’s really strict. How I am going to survive here!!!!

The most terrible + worse interesting + wonderful place is dining hall! It is because there is a person that most of the students hate her, Miss Dugong!

My seniors???? I don’t want to talk about them.

And when it goes to a boy, my heart will only go to Haqif. Mybe! He was my classmate. Love? No! I just like his attitude. I’ve never fall in love because I know it will hurt me. This is because I know there’s no boy will love me. Why? Because I’m too beautiful + kind + gorgeous ?  I wish I am! But……. I’ve already accept that I’m Hanma. A dark skin and naughty girl. Yup! That’s me.

If you ask me how naughty I was, then my answer would be these…

Teasing and disturb my friends.

Last minutes studies

‘Taking a nap’ in every class

Hide in locker because I wanna skip preparation class.

Break the rules. (Rules are born to be break)

Homework? Sometimes I will skip it.

Take extra fruits at the dining hall.

And…I really love to tease the ‘nerd’ male student.

That is me. Hanma Ykuz. Weird name? (-_____-)’’

!!Tease the ‘nerd’ male student!!

There were two boys that I really love to disturb. Mikah and Ziaf.

Mikah became one of my good friend

And Ziaf…..he became my boyfriend best buddy. He is handsome and kind. He also had many admirers.

Ziaf gave me a very wonderful memory for me to keep. I’ll lock all of the memories in my heart.

What he did???

The first guy…

who gave me an ice cream

who spent few hours with me alone in the classroom (like a first date).

who  teaches me how to draw (male cartoon).But I only learnt how to draw male’s eyes.

who gave me half of his bread. (He kept the bread that he bought until we reached at the school from a competition for me)

who knew that I can’t watch  horror movies  (he even told my teacher that I can’t eat beef)

asked me to call him ‘abang’ because I asked him to draw(which was my homework)

used all public phone in the school to disturb me

used his friend’s phone to text me. (to say goodnight!)

and…HE WAS MY FIRST BOYFRIEND

He is really a good boyfriend. When his friend told him that I don’t deserved him, he would said this: “ I like her, and for me, she’s cute”

But what I did to him? I asked him to end our relationship.

WHY???

Sir Risan which was my beloved teacher told me that he would be one of our discipline teachers. If I was caught because of couple, he would definitely make us a ‘wedding ceremony’ in the hall. He would call our parents to came to give their bless!

‘’if  I have to go to your school because you make something wrong, on the dot, you will out from that school!’’ that was my father’s warning.

I had already loved my friends and teachers. So I decided to end our relationship for a moment. I want to be with him again after SPM…

One day, one of my friends told me that there was a pretty girl like Ziaf.

“ it’s ok. As long as he don’t like that girl “

Yeah, that’s what I thought! But…then, I knew that he replied the messages from that girl. Without any hesitations,  I felt furious.

“ I am sure Ziaf also like that girl. She is really beautiful and there are many boys want to be with her. And me?? Hmmpppp!!! “

So I decided to give him all presents that he once gave me. He deserved better.

I thought I could forget him. Bad to worse I love him more and more. All memories about him kept coming in my mind. Stuck in head!

I wish I can be with him again. But he already hates me because I am the one who left him.

And he said…

                “why you always trust your friend than me?”

                “I can’t focus my study because of you”

                “you think I am stupid and will back to you after you left me?”

Yup, I trust my friend than you..why?...because they are MY FRIENDS…I always ask their advice because I have never couple before.

Yup, your result were ruined because of me…why?...because when I want to end our relationship, you think I don’t love you….but, I just want to end it for a moment…

Yup, I want you…why? Because I thought we only end our relationship for a moment, not forever…and I want to say the three words that I have never told you and other guy…’I LOVE YOU’